Business Bird

How I presented a business plan…

I wasnt trying to make a mockery or anything…I swear. I have an appreciation for the various arts and that includes customer service and culinary creation.

That being said…I’m not a people person. It’s difficult for me to speak to people about ideas that I haven’t fully thought out unless I’m already at work and Meghan is near. Even though Alex can handle complexities Meghan is the brave one who can take on new challenges.

It’s like this: Alex handles our notebook. All the ideas, schedules, concepts, lists..whatever. She’s super organized and it’s exceedingly helpful almost to the point of being harmful….that’s right…I said that.

Meghan on the other hand is the reason I can not go for walks outside. She’ll either take us 10 miles away thru dark alleys and down sewers or she’ll run off into the woods.

So…the bird.

I didn’t want to put “trash” in the tip jar even though what’s written on that little bit of paper are some decent ideas. Putting trash in a tip jar is…don’t do that. no. bad.

I had to make it look special.

The problem is though…

If I am this scared to talk to someone..

How will I ever be a voice for those who can’t?

I’ve been trying. I notice people all the time. If they’re having trouble I try to help. Like the “new model” who was being photographed downtown but had to keep talking herself up. As I walked by, careful to stay out of shot, I said, “Rawr get it girl! Be a tiger!”

Well I didn’t say that…but someone from my voice did.

It’s a weird journey I’m on lately.

…haven’t heard anything about the little note yet. It might have gotten thrown away. Or they decided to keep the ideas I gave them.

*shrug* I’m ok with that. That place helped me in a lot of ways. I’ll be back there Tuesday I think. Maybe I’ll know something then.

Till then.


twitter= @puppys_yips

twitch= puppyplaytime Next stream 10\30 Monthly Marathon (at least 12 hours maybe more. Gonna do games and movies and maybe get into some art.)

I sent the book to publishing then…

Marketing called me. They asked about making a movie. I agreed to phone interviews. No movie.

Because I cant….I cant handle the idea of a child in that situation. Sure it’s like “my side of the mountian” meets ” the incredible journey” but…

So many things are implied …

I cant be chill with that.


The book is complete and has been sent off to the publisher!!
Omg let me tell you I have been back and forth on this insane battle of to publish or not to publish and I’ve gotta say….writing this helped me tremendously. Plus I’ve got the next 4 books figured out and waiting to be written so…

gosh ….

This gd book

Is killing me. Legit. It is so intensely personal that even my own brain is like,” hey there buddy…are you ok? Let’s think about something else for a bit.”
No lie. We’ve begun drawing. granted if we eever want to produce a children’s book we’ll need an illustrator so it’s only a natural progression.

Since I left the main novel for a bit my memory has given me 4 more stories to add plus the cover art ( which i’m incredibly proud of it’s brick like symbology when coupled with the stories). So even while trying to take a break my subconscious is stilll like,” do the dam thing.”

So I took those notes and can’t decide what to do with it.

In the mean time I’ve created a secondary trilogy…of sorts. The childrens book is more real, I have an outline for a teen self help book, and ….

something else. An idea that occurred so concretely without any doubt that I had to draw a picture and write a short story about it. I can’t be sure where it will fit into the other books of “Puppy” or even if it should..

I’ve been fighting with myself almost constantly about publishing the 1st book. almost constantly. It’s paid for. but it’s brutal and the next four stories will only make it darker.

Which means I’ll have to release the second book very quickly.

Which almost works…it’s another short story self exploritory complilation. I’m not gonna correct any spelling rn because I’ve been so absent minded lately that I forgot my computer mouse. I can’t stand the little mouse pad thingy…

any way that cover art and several of it’s stories hit me like a brick wall on the same night that all the other writing did.

This told me I needed a break. I spent 12 hours creating the basic skeletal structure of the writing world that’s invaded my brain.

I’m doing the inktober challenge.

I’ve started a math class to get a certification for work.

I figured out how to get more storage space .

changed my motorcycle oil…

I tried distracting myself with video games but neither the youtube channel nor the twitch stream are doing well enough.

I’m liking my math course. I’m looking forward to continuing certifications…but

I have to get these books out too. Not just for my mental health or added income( which will reduce termendous stress) but for any one else who’s dealt with similar things or to help prevent people from dealing with similar things…

Idk…I’m trying my best to not go insane.