In some sort of love/like/crush thing…
It makes me nauseous? Like I enjoy the happiness of feeling like this but I dont feel comfortable enough to…
I shiver when people touch me.
It’s a trauma response that I cant help. And it feels vastly unfair to the other person ,”its like I’m molesting you.”
I try not to think of the ones who have while you’re actually concerned about my conscent.
I try to not flashback at your breath on my neck or the feel of your fingertips. I try to not see him, her..them.
So when I look into your eyes and practically beg you to not look away it’s because I am doing my best to give you a fair chance. I’m sorry for my failure.