Is killing me. Legit. It is so intensely personal that even my own brain is like,” hey there buddy…are you ok? Let’s think about something else for a bit.”
No lie. We’ve begun drawing. granted if we eever want to produce a children’s book we’ll need an illustrator so it’s only a natural progression.
Since I left the main novel for a bit my memory has given me 4 more stories to add plus the cover art ( which i’m incredibly proud of it’s brick like symbology when coupled with the stories). So even while trying to take a break my subconscious is stilll like,” do the dam thing.”
So I took those notes and can’t decide what to do with it.
In the mean time I’ve created a secondary trilogy…of sorts. The childrens book is more real, I have an outline for a teen self help book, and ….
something else. An idea that occurred so concretely without any doubt that I had to draw a picture and write a short story about it. I can’t be sure where it will fit into the other books of “Puppy” or even if it should..
I’ve been fighting with myself almost constantly about publishing the 1st book. almost constantly. It’s paid for. but it’s brutal and the next four stories will only make it darker.
Which means I’ll have to release the second book very quickly.
Which almost works…it’s another short story self exploritory complilation. I’m not gonna correct any spelling rn because I’ve been so absent minded lately that I forgot my computer mouse. I can’t stand the little mouse pad thingy…
any way that cover art and several of it’s stories hit me like a brick wall on the same night that all the other writing did.
This told me I needed a break. I spent 12 hours creating the basic skeletal structure of the writing world that’s invaded my brain.
I’m doing the inktober challenge.
I’ve started a math class to get a certification for work.
I figured out how to get more storage space .
changed my motorcycle oil…
I tried distracting myself with video games but neither the youtube channel nor the twitch stream are doing well enough.
I’m liking my math course. I’m looking forward to continuing certifications…but
I have to get these books out too. Not just for my mental health or added income( which will reduce termendous stress) but for any one else who’s dealt with similar things or to help prevent people from dealing with similar things…
Idk…I’m trying my best to not go insane.